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14 March 2011 @ 02:54 pm
Fic: ‘Found, and lost.’  
Title: Found, and lost.
Fandom: Star Wars
Rating: (G)
Time Period: AotC: Genosis.
Summary: He realised too late.

Author's Note: This is quick ‘n’ dirty (for definition see the F. A. Q.).

After Loyalty proven and Chaos descends, I had thought to write something happier for this pair.

Then I wrote this.

This isn’t as bad as Loyalty proven and Chaos descends, I feel, in the emotion wrenching way but it’s not the happier story I’d wanted.

All characters contained herein are the intellectual property of Lucas; I am not affiliated with nor endorsed by him.


A Geonosian arena was not the place he wanted to be; he could think of far pleasanter locations and events he would prefer to attend.

In fact, he did.

Lying in bed after a mission, muscles protesting his recently past abuse. Sweat beading his brow while practicing his form. Hands grasped around a lightsaber moments before leaping into the fray. Fingers gliding along water-softened skin ...

When did that memory slip in?

Hands chained above his head, he glanced first left, then right. The guards were in a large, loose circle around the pillars – he had seen there were three in the arena – and lips lightly kissing his ch—

He grunted softly; he shouldn’t have begun that line of thought earlier, he thought to himself. That last, he dryly commented in his mind, was purely fantasy. It was what he wan—

He knew in that moment his feelings were stronger than he had allowed himself to know, to feel; the friendship they shared had been allowed. Anything else, had not. He was Jedi. She was a Galactic Senator. He was here and she was on Naboo. She ...

Was here, he saw when he glanced to the commotion by the gates leading into the arena. He saw, past a Geonosian head, his Padawan and the Senator. They ...

They were in the arena, now, with her looking to Anakin with a blush but a determined nod.

His heart broke, sharp edges pressing against his chest before they, too, broke; his heart crumbled and he tasted the acrid dust of the arena on his tongue.
emiv: stock | *wink wink*emiv on March 14th, 2011 06:38 am (UTC)
Oh poor Obi-Wan!

This is lovely. I really like the half-formed thoughts; they add a sense of realism to it and really illustrate his inner struggle, as well as the stress of his current situation.

And I agree, this is poignant, but not totally heart-wrenching, like the last ones were (of course, I enjoyed those very much as well, after my initial reaction!tantrum)! There almost a glimmer of hope to this one...of course, that's probably just my Obidala shipper's heart rearing it's ugly head.

As always, very well done. :)
F. J.: Golden Candlesmorethanacandle on March 14th, 2011 08:15 am (UTC)
but not totally heart-wrenching, like the last ones were
Reading it now, I think that glimmer of hope you mentioned and the fact this is seen from a more laconic, dry point of view helps it not be as heart-wrenching.

As always, very well done. :)
Thank you! Maybe one day I'll write a happier story for them!
Armchair DM: Carson: No no no AIEEE!!armchairdm on March 14th, 2011 08:24 am (UTC)
Poor, poor Obi-Wan. Yoda would have some words for him! *shakes head* He never seems to catch a break.
F. J.: Lantern & Candles: Warmmorethanacandle on March 14th, 2011 11:45 am (UTC)
He never seems to catch a break.
I'm sure he will ... some time!
kenobifan: The TWOlealynnkenobi on March 15th, 2011 07:40 am (UTC)
"When did that memory slip in?" I can just see Obi-Wan thinking that!!

Obi-Wan realized he had stronger feelings for Padme... then his bubble burst!! Oh poor Obi-Wan. :(

Enjoyed the read! :D
F. J.: Lanterns: Warmmorethanacandle on March 15th, 2011 10:04 am (UTC)
I agree: poor Obi-Wan!

And thanks for reading!
noobianrose: O/P Artphilia manipnoobianrose on March 19th, 2011 11:54 pm (UTC)
Aw! Poor Obi-Wan! Great imagery there at the end. Loved it.
F. J.: Golden Candlesmorethanacandle on March 20th, 2011 03:20 pm (UTC)
Great imagery there at the end. Loved it.
Thanks! It's imagery that's persisted for awhile and I was happy to use it, finally.