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25 January 2006 @ 12:22 am
Fic: 'In Your Hands, My Faith and Trust.'  
Title: In Your Hands, My Faith and Trust.
Fandom: Star Wars
Rating: (G)
Time Period: AotC: Immediate after Geonosis.
Summary: Obi-Wan & Padmé converse.

Author's Note: This is the second of a trio of short stories set within the prequel films; the name of this trilogy is 'Behind You'. These stories are written to allow them to stand alone or to read as part of the trilogy.

All characters contained herein are the intellectual property of Lucas; I am not affiliated with nor endorsed by him.


No Jar Jar greeted me at the door; at this hour, it would’ve been a surprise. To see Padmé without her entourage is a Force born blessing; there are matters that shouldn’t be mentioned in the presence of security and Handmaidens. It would raise suspicions if I asked to speak with Padmé privately; rumours would be murmured in Senate chambers when there are other concerns, of greater import, to discuss.

Stepping into the azure entrance, my presence is already noticed, knowing, as I do, Captain Typho’s vigilance. By the window, I see her standing and I am loath to break the stillness, the picture presented to me: expression softened in reflection as she studies the Coruscanti night – what little can be seen amidst the skyscrapers, both ancient and new, and careening traffic.

Reluctant to disturb, yet I must before my resolve is lost.

“My lady,” as I cross the threshold, to the sitting room, “forgive my intrusion.” A quiet apology accompanying a bow and my hands hide in the dark earth robe.

As she glances up, blue eyes meet reflected brown. A slight smile curves her lips at the memory invoked by the greeting. “Jedi Kenobi,” as she turns away from the window, “this is no intrusion.” Playing out the remembrance, although not fully. Her hands mirror mine and as she steps away from the window, she is almost lost to my sight in her rich cerulean robe; only barely does the subdued lighting illuminate the room. “You know to call me Padmé.” A light-hearted scolding, amiably borne.

“I wouldn’t presume such familiarity.” With a politician remains unsaid, reminded of the admonishment I had given Anakin in this room, on the first night of our assignment to her security.

Padmé is not a politician; her actions on Geonosis proved this.

“Obi-Wan,” a glimpse of ivory under the robe as movement causes it to shift, “you tease.”

“I’m caught.” A chuckle, warm. “I should know better than to tease a Senator.” Who is practiced at reading the subtle nuances of body and voice.

“I didn’t think Jedi knew how to tease.”

“You never know what skills will be required in the field, Senator.” A playful use of her title as evidenced by the fleeting smirk. “How are you?” The claws of the nexu were sharp and those gouges deep.

With the change of subject, her smile fades. “It was only a flesh wound,” a hushed offering to the evening as she watches me closely, for any movement out of place; once the battle was over, I had been attended by a Healer. “How is Anakin?”

“Impatient to awaken and tinker with his new hand, I imagine.” Something has changed between Padmé and my padawan; I’d heard a new note of urgency in his voice when she had fallen from the gunship and I’d seen the way she’d embraced him in the hangar, how precisely she had checked on his well being. I had sensed feelings that bordered on attachment and a talk will be had, between Anakin and I. “When he’s discharged from the infirmary, he will accompany you to Naboo.” What she had fought to defeat had been changed in our absence.

A change I do not trust. The Republic has gained a victory against the Confederacy, at Geonosis.

This time. If Masters Windu and Yoda had not arrived when they had, it would’ve been a grievous loss for the Republic.

“I look forward to returning home.” Social niceties we observe, with this small talk; it is safe.

No longer, as I step toward her, away from the door. “Padmé, you shouldn’t have come to Geonosis.”

“Should I have left you captured? You would’ve died, Obi-Wan, if we hadn’t come to rescue you.”

“It was some rescue.” Dryly remarked, remembering the scarcity of security cameras in this room; few witness our conversation. Those hidden cameras remind me of where I am and with whom I speak: Senator Amidala, of Naboo.

Colour suffuses her cheeks, defiance brightens those expressive eyes; carelessly, a curl falls over her shoulder, followed by its mates as the distance between us is further shortened. “I couldn’t leave you to die, Obi-Wan.” Heated words; passionate. “I thought to negotiate your release.”

“And it was an excellent opportunity to prevent the war that has begun.”

“No.” Sharp, her gaze spears me, holds me in place. “I promised, Obi-Wan.” An almost whisper and if I were further away, I would not have heard it.

I will always be one step behind you, Obi-Wan. A promise not forgotten. Faith and trust had been reawakened with those words, that long-ago dawn, and in my investigation of Jango Fett, I had sought to not fail that faith.

As she had striven to not fail her oath.

Unaware I’d been holding it, I release a long breath. “I know,” my hands remain as they are, even as blue eyes regard brown. “You could’ve died, Padmé.” A realisation that slows, almost halting, my heart.

She could have died.

She didn’t. A chiding reminder, to mind my place.

My heart resumes normalcy.

“Not if I were behind you.” I see my reflection in her eyes, large and luminous.

Despite myself, I reach for her hands and clasp them gently between mine. Small, delicate compared to my own; not so long ago, they were holding a military blaster, dispensing death to droids in self-defence. I’m not going to ask about Tatooine; no doubt they had been there to check upon Anakin’s mother due to his dreams. It is another matter he and I will discuss. “In your hands, Padmé, is my faith and trust. I know you keep them well.” And will continue to do so.

Her dark gaze falls, from me to our hands; as I’d spoken, she’d drawn closer. “Behind you, Obi-Wan, always.” An affirmation of our friendship and her promise in those three words, as her eyes rise, serious and sincere.

Behind you, always.

Three simple words holding me in place … longer than is considered proper, for Jedi and Senator.

A half-bow and my lips brush the back of her hand. “I should leave you to rest, my lady.” Her hands released and a step backward – and away.

“As you wish, Master Jedi.”

The boundaries are redrawn and we are again conscious of our positions, of what is appropriate.

Turning, I depart, aware I am watched as I leave, until the doors of the elevator close and I am lost to her sight.

Behind you, always. A pledge renewed, reverberating in my mind with a lingering caress for she had whispered it.

In her hands, my faith and trust reside.
"MJ": Obidalalondongirl27 on January 24th, 2006 01:48 pm (UTC)
Great story! I also went back and read the last part of the series; I like your style of writing. If you don't mind, I'll add this journal to my friend list. Also, do you mind if I add your other user name to my friend list (faeriejedi)?
F. J.: Three candlesmorethanacandle on January 24th, 2006 01:58 pm (UTC)
Thank you! This story I wrote whilst on holiday and I've been uncertain as to whether it's flowing in the same 'voice' for this arc; I'm hoping it does.

I have absolutely no problem if you'd like to friend this journal; it's my writing journal whereas the other is my personal journal (and if you'd like to friend that, I have no problem).
sofi says RAWR.brighty11 on January 24th, 2006 09:33 pm (UTC)
Pretty story! I'm going to go read the others.
F. J.: lantern & candlesmorethanacandle on January 24th, 2006 09:48 pm (UTC)
Thank you, for your kind words.

If you check the journal's memories, you'll find the other fiction that's been posted to this journal.
rabbitmagerabbitmage on January 24th, 2006 10:02 pm (UTC)
Yet another beautifully written fic! Your dedication to details (and editing!) really shows here, as well as your natural talent. I especially like this series because I can still see all this happening among the movies. It's not at all difficult to believe this might've happened.
F. J.: Three candlesmorethanacandle on January 24th, 2006 10:15 pm (UTC)
Thank you! I'm glad you're enjoying this particular trio.

I especially like this series because I can still see all this happening among the movies.
I think, out of all the comments so far, this part has really pleased me the most - I've been uncertain of that, when I've been hoping that you could do so. I can see it amongst the movies, but, I'm the one writing it.

I'm glad this trio has been working like that, for you, so far.
Armchair DM: Carson: No no no AIEEE!!armchairdm on January 25th, 2006 12:36 am (UTC)
And then she goes to marry 'Ani!'. Right. That's just wrong.
F. J.: lantern & candlesmorethanacandle on January 25th, 2006 12:51 am (UTC)
Yes, she does marry Anakin after this.
Pantherapanthology on January 25th, 2006 04:07 am (UTC)
I liked the last one - I love this.

Waiting eagerly for the next.
F. J.: Three candlesmorethanacandle on January 25th, 2006 05:00 am (UTC)
Thank you.
Pantherapanthology on January 26th, 2006 08:47 am (UTC)
I like this second 'Behind You' more than the first. I think it was that they were both older and stronger than before, and in the first one there was also the sadness and newness of what happened.

Here they're both more sure of themselves and their place in the scheme of things.

I also agree with those folks on IM *nod*.
F. J.: lantern & candlesmorethanacandle on January 26th, 2006 09:03 am (UTC)
Basically, they've grown up?

I also agree with those folks on IM *nod*.
I was wondering if you would, or not. I think, in this trilogy, the place for that would've been this story although I'm still researching to eye it from their viewpoints and how they've changed and grown as people for the third one.

As I said to that person - who knows, with this story?
Pantherapanthology on January 26th, 2006 09:13 am (UTC)
Pretty much that, yes.

It's a shorter time period between, but a more intense one, for both of them.
F. J.: Three candlesmorethanacandle on January 26th, 2006 09:20 am (UTC)
I'm half-looking forward to that particular period, admittedly; it's the one I'm more familiar with.
Brittanystarlit_muses on January 25th, 2006 03:01 pm (UTC)
Very nice
Just like the last one it's wonderful. I can't wait for the third one.

Be well and keep up the good work.
F. J.: lantern & candlesmorethanacandle on January 25th, 2006 11:04 pm (UTC)
Re: Very nice
Thank you, for your kind words!

The third of this trio shouldn't be too long a wait (with luck!) and I'm glad that you're enjoying them; it's almost sad to see this trio end!